As the sunlight slowly faded away,
The city lights flickered on, one by one,
Illuminating everything on the outside,
And casting a shadow on the inside;
As time slowly ticked past,
The darkness inched closer and closer,
Spreading its shadows across the land,
My inner self comes alive;
As much as i struggle and curl underneath the blanket,
My fears come alive, and slowly engulfs me from the inside,
And tears up the mask that i so successfully put on during the day;
Fears that torment me from the inside during the day,
Comes alive as soon the light fades away and i am back into my den,
With a mind of its own, tormenting me every single night,
Sometimes i wished i was dead;
Surrounded by many,
Yet isolated and alone,
I try to reach out to people,
But succeed in grasping just empty air;
Struggling to keep my sanity,
I plunge myself into darkness,
For its the only place to hide,
To cope with all this,
I give up and cry myself to sleep;
It’s tiresome to want something you don’t have, and each morning,
I wake with loneliness by my side, each day I walk with it’s presence,
In my footsteps, each night it lies hand in hand with my insomnia;
Perhaps i have become invisible ?
Or have i become just an figment of imagination ?
They cried on my shoulders and i soaked up their tears,
Asking for nothing in return, but when i need someone,
Where did they all go ?
Silent Words
Sunday, May 2, 2010
When We Are Together
I sit here watching,
The twinkle of the stars,
The full moon in its beauty,
In the cool night breeze;
A feeling so strong, yet said very less,
A emotion that whirls around like a tornado,
But expressed not even a whisper;
As the gentle breeze tried to play a lullaby,
My eyes just refused to pay heed,
Drowned in thoughts of you,
My mind was as fresh as it can be;
All these times, all those moments,
I can’t believe how i let go,
I can’t understand why i didn’t say,
What my heart was crying out loud;
I’m always thinking of you,
Thinking of expressing myself,
But my words,
When I look at you, when i speak with you,
It always ends up to one thing,
I just can’t think of,
The right words to say;
If only the wind could carry,
The unrevealed emotions,
That my heart is crying out every night,
I would send it as my messenger right away !!
Should I tell you,
How awful it feels,
Giving off our time alone,
Don’t you feel the pain,
When your eyes lock with mine?
Sometimes life can be deceiving,
I’ll tell you one thing,
It’s always better when we’re together,
Promises, i dont make,
Of the riches and wealth,
All i have and all that i can,
Give you is my love,
For as long as i am alive,
To cement our future,
To make our dreams come true !!
The twinkle of the stars,
The full moon in its beauty,
In the cool night breeze;
A feeling so strong, yet said very less,
A emotion that whirls around like a tornado,
But expressed not even a whisper;
As the gentle breeze tried to play a lullaby,
My eyes just refused to pay heed,
Drowned in thoughts of you,
My mind was as fresh as it can be;
All these times, all those moments,
I can’t believe how i let go,
I can’t understand why i didn’t say,
What my heart was crying out loud;
I’m always thinking of you,
Thinking of expressing myself,
But my words,
When I look at you, when i speak with you,
It always ends up to one thing,
I just can’t think of,
The right words to say;
If only the wind could carry,
The unrevealed emotions,
That my heart is crying out every night,
I would send it as my messenger right away !!
Should I tell you,
How awful it feels,
Giving off our time alone,
Don’t you feel the pain,
When your eyes lock with mine?
Sometimes life can be deceiving,
I’ll tell you one thing,
It’s always better when we’re together,
Promises, i dont make,
Of the riches and wealth,
All i have and all that i can,
Give you is my love,
For as long as i am alive,
To cement our future,
To make our dreams come true !!
Tomorrow Will Be Better Then Today
Its midnight and tomorrow is a better day than today,
My eyes just staring at the wall opposite,
No sleep, no dreams,
I sit and watch the drama,
Unfolding before me;
Like an empty canvas,
Waiting for an artist,
I wait in anticipation,
Wondering when and wondering why;
I did all i could,
So i believe so,
What is happening is beyond my grasp,
And i can only watch as a mere spectator;
A mere spectator in my own life,
One moment its all the way up,
The next its hanging in balance,
The tension is nerve wracking;
Patience is all i have,
And patience is all that i need,
As i watch the things unfold,
And let things take shape at its own pace;
I waited a long time for this,
So what difference it is going to make,
To wait a little bit more,
But for how long should i be the villian in my own life;
I wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
I wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,
I wish i do not have to wait for long,
I wish, i hope and i believe,
Maybe tomorrow will be better than today !!
My eyes just staring at the wall opposite,
No sleep, no dreams,
I sit and watch the drama,
Unfolding before me;
Like an empty canvas,
Waiting for an artist,
I wait in anticipation,
Wondering when and wondering why;
I did all i could,
So i believe so,
What is happening is beyond my grasp,
And i can only watch as a mere spectator;
A mere spectator in my own life,
One moment its all the way up,
The next its hanging in balance,
The tension is nerve wracking;
Patience is all i have,
And patience is all that i need,
As i watch the things unfold,
And let things take shape at its own pace;
I waited a long time for this,
So what difference it is going to make,
To wait a little bit more,
But for how long should i be the villian in my own life;
I wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
I wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,
I wish i do not have to wait for long,
I wish, i hope and i believe,
Maybe tomorrow will be better than today !!
Make My Wish Come True
Searching for answers,
That evaded me for so long,
I got lost in a maze of treachery,
Hidden under a mask of innocence;
It’s been so long,
Words kept me awake,
All night long, making,
Me restless and confused;
Drowning in the wishes,
Of a long lost past,
I let my life down,
I let myself down;
In the midst of the night
Under the velvet skies
I surrendered to life
I whisper for forgiveness;
So with a smile on my lips,
And a wish on my heart,
I give faith(hope) one more reason,
I give life another chance,
To make my wish come true !!!
That evaded me for so long,
I got lost in a maze of treachery,
Hidden under a mask of innocence;
It’s been so long,
Words kept me awake,
All night long, making,
Me restless and confused;
Drowning in the wishes,
Of a long lost past,
I let my life down,
I let myself down;
In the midst of the night
Under the velvet skies
I surrendered to life
I whisper for forgiveness;
So with a smile on my lips,
And a wish on my heart,
I give faith(hope) one more reason,
I give life another chance,
To make my wish come true !!!
Incomplete
The grey sky looming above,
Rain drops still dripping down,
From the pregnant clouds above,
We set out on our journey once again;
Around and around we go,
In slow circles moving,
To the beat of the thunder,
And rain that surrounds us;
As the droplets hit the ground,
Shattered realizations lay scattered,
Reminding me nothing is same,
As it seems to be;
As another memory turns to dust,
I cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past,
And i shove it back into the depths,
Where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
The rain does nothing to stop our journey,
Never forgetting, who we are,
We walk these streets of madness,
Knowing that,without each other,
We are simply incomplete.
Rain drops still dripping down,
From the pregnant clouds above,
We set out on our journey once again;
Around and around we go,
In slow circles moving,
To the beat of the thunder,
And rain that surrounds us;
As the droplets hit the ground,
Shattered realizations lay scattered,
Reminding me nothing is same,
As it seems to be;
As another memory turns to dust,
I cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past,
And i shove it back into the depths,
Where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
The rain does nothing to stop our journey,
Never forgetting, who we are,
We walk these streets of madness,
Knowing that,without each other,
We are simply incomplete.
If You Have A Dream
Don’t wait for some distant day to come,
It may be too late before you’ve even begun,
Not everyone will agree with all you decide.
Be true to yourself first and foremost,
The only important thing in life is what you do,
With the time you spend here on earth.
Don’t be afraid to follow your desires,
They are not silly nor selfish,
Take the time and do what makes you feel alive.
Leave your fears and regrets in the past,
For this is where they belong,
Don’t cloud today with things that can’t be undone.
You have no more control over yesterday or tomorrow,
Than you do the raging of your passions,
Do not quiet these dreams nor quench your desires.
For if you do, your journey is ended,
You have only today to begin anew and follow your dreams,
For in the end all we have are our memories.
When the twilight comes to us, let there be,
No excuses, no explanations, no regrets !!!
It may be too late before you’ve even begun,
Not everyone will agree with all you decide.
Be true to yourself first and foremost,
The only important thing in life is what you do,
With the time you spend here on earth.
Don’t be afraid to follow your desires,
They are not silly nor selfish,
Take the time and do what makes you feel alive.
Leave your fears and regrets in the past,
For this is where they belong,
Don’t cloud today with things that can’t be undone.
You have no more control over yesterday or tomorrow,
Than you do the raging of your passions,
Do not quiet these dreams nor quench your desires.
For if you do, your journey is ended,
You have only today to begin anew and follow your dreams,
For in the end all we have are our memories.
When the twilight comes to us, let there be,
No excuses, no explanations, no regrets !!!
Change Of Heart
Thoughts flow through my head,
As i wait to find the place where i belong,
Waiting in line for a long time,
My patience slowly ebbing away;
Searching for a way to find that special place for me,
That place where i can fly, the place where i feel free,
That place thats my own, the place where im totally
Free is right by your side, when its just you and me;
Challenges i met along the way,
Embrace my life with trepidation.
But, a changed person, i am today;
Suddenly the world is different,
The world is new,
The world is a place
Perfect for me and you;
And suddenly everything fits,
The world seems like a perfect place,
I’m no longer alone,
And my life doesn’t seem to be such a waste !!!
As i wait to find the place where i belong,
Waiting in line for a long time,
My patience slowly ebbing away;
Searching for a way to find that special place for me,
That place where i can fly, the place where i feel free,
That place thats my own, the place where im totally
Free is right by your side, when its just you and me;
Challenges i met along the way,
Embrace my life with trepidation.
But, a changed person, i am today;
Suddenly the world is different,
The world is new,
The world is a place
Perfect for me and you;
And suddenly everything fits,
The world seems like a perfect place,
I’m no longer alone,
And my life doesn’t seem to be such a waste !!!
Before I Am Dead
Waking up drenched in sweat,
Realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare,
I get up to drink a glass of water,
To drown the fear that woke me up !!
Sins I have done plenty,
I do not know if the good I did is enough,
To grant me a passage to heaven,
Or worse, born again as human !!
Never cared for what people thought,
Never worried about those who left,
Never a minute I spent crying over split milk,
What had to happen, had to happen !!
What I was yesterday is what I am today,
Yet people think I have changed, I wonder why !!
I take life as it comes,
No expectations and no demands !!
With the guillotine waiting at every step,
Uncertainty looms large over tomorrow,
I fear I need to live every moment
Of today before I am dead !!
Realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare,
I get up to drink a glass of water,
To drown the fear that woke me up !!
Sins I have done plenty,
I do not know if the good I did is enough,
To grant me a passage to heaven,
Or worse, born again as human !!
Never cared for what people thought,
Never worried about those who left,
Never a minute I spent crying over split milk,
What had to happen, had to happen !!
What I was yesterday is what I am today,
Yet people think I have changed, I wonder why !!
I take life as it comes,
No expectations and no demands !!
With the guillotine waiting at every step,
Uncertainty looms large over tomorrow,
I fear I need to live every moment
Of today before I am dead !!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Divine Conscience
"God made man in his image, and in this image man made god" !!!
I was always taught, that service to man was service to god.
That god resides on every human beings.
No one has ever seen god, and that is one of the main reason why religion is seriously and publicly threatend by science.
Science asks for prove for every single thing, but religion is all about having faith on the supreme power that watch over us.
But then its true its a belief that we so blindly put our trust on.
No one has ever, and to my intuition will ever know who god really is.
As we know god is the one who created us, the one who look after us, who cares for our wish and try to fulfill it.
But then doesnt love does that ?
Doesn'nt love makes you feel alive, rejuvenated ?
Does'nt it look after us, the feeling that we are in love makes us to care for ourself, so that we can be alive to experience it.
Does'nt love care for us and fulfill all our wish ?
Those of whom who loves you does'nt care for you ? Does'nt they strive to fulfill all your wishes ?
Does'nt "LOVE" seems like godly ?
Something out of extraordinary, something out of the world.
In this world of chaos and lies, something so pure and sacred still exist, does'nt that seem to be a miracle in itself.
We got a life, everyone loves themself.
Who cares what the fuck happens to others.
As long as we are happy and we live peacefully.
But God is someone who doesn'nt think that way, right ?
He cares for his children, lend his hand when we fall down.
When in love you feel like giving up your life to fulfill all the wishes and dreams of the one you love.
You don't think about yourself ? Strange !!!
You don't care what happens to you as long as your love persist.
Does'nt that sounds something that god might do ?
Human was'nt bestowed with the power to sacrifice, and last time i checked all of us have a single life.
So everyone value their lifes, but then does'nt love defy that unbreakable rule?
The rule to live for yourself, does'nt love lend you the power to sacrifice ?
I read it somewhere only god has the power to lend you the strength.
Thats why we pray to him to give us the strength when we are weak.
How can love lend us a strength so powerful to give up your life ?
Even god does'nt seems that powerful to alter ones mind to do that.
I find myself a bit confused here !!!
Love is more powerful than god ?
Impossible right, god made us, he has the power to destroy us.
So much of confusion right.
Welcome to the reality baby, true identity of god.
And people says they havn'nt seen god, ha ha ha !!!
Funny species humans are.
We love, we die for it, we die to uphold it, we sacrifice the only thing thats our in this world for it, our lifes.
That is godly !!!
In love theres no me, but we.
That is godly !!!
It makes us forget our happiness in a run to fulfill their's.
That is godly !!!
It can make us thinks we were sent in this world for this, when we should be enjoying, we keep on thinking a better way of making them happy.
That is godly !!!
when you make them stand in shade, while you stand under the scroching heat,
That is godly !!!
When you Forget your birthday, which you celebrated so grandly untill now, with a motive to throw them a surprise party on their birthday.
That is godly !!!
Inspite of burning with fever, when you are tensed to the bone, just because they got a bit of cold.
That is godly !!!
You have been dieing to have something, and when you give it up to them, just because they said its good.
That is godly !!!
When you keep smiling when your heart cries out, just not to let them know it and be upset.
That is godly !!!
And when while dieing your last wish is not to let them carry you, because you are heavy and they would get tired.
That is divine !!!
When you prohibit them to come to burn you down, just because you cant see them cry.
That is divine !!!
Where don't you see god, you morons.
Look around you, he is every where.
Feelings always does't need a body.
It is omni present.
NOW TEL ME HAVE YOU SEEN GOD ?
I was always taught, that service to man was service to god.
That god resides on every human beings.
No one has ever seen god, and that is one of the main reason why religion is seriously and publicly threatend by science.
Science asks for prove for every single thing, but religion is all about having faith on the supreme power that watch over us.
But then its true its a belief that we so blindly put our trust on.
No one has ever, and to my intuition will ever know who god really is.
As we know god is the one who created us, the one who look after us, who cares for our wish and try to fulfill it.
But then doesnt love does that ?
Doesn'nt love makes you feel alive, rejuvenated ?
Does'nt it look after us, the feeling that we are in love makes us to care for ourself, so that we can be alive to experience it.
Does'nt love care for us and fulfill all our wish ?
Those of whom who loves you does'nt care for you ? Does'nt they strive to fulfill all your wishes ?
Does'nt "LOVE" seems like godly ?
Something out of extraordinary, something out of the world.
In this world of chaos and lies, something so pure and sacred still exist, does'nt that seem to be a miracle in itself.
We got a life, everyone loves themself.
Who cares what the fuck happens to others.
As long as we are happy and we live peacefully.
But God is someone who doesn'nt think that way, right ?
He cares for his children, lend his hand when we fall down.
When in love you feel like giving up your life to fulfill all the wishes and dreams of the one you love.
You don't think about yourself ? Strange !!!
You don't care what happens to you as long as your love persist.
Does'nt that sounds something that god might do ?
Human was'nt bestowed with the power to sacrifice, and last time i checked all of us have a single life.
So everyone value their lifes, but then does'nt love defy that unbreakable rule?
The rule to live for yourself, does'nt love lend you the power to sacrifice ?
I read it somewhere only god has the power to lend you the strength.
Thats why we pray to him to give us the strength when we are weak.
How can love lend us a strength so powerful to give up your life ?
Even god does'nt seems that powerful to alter ones mind to do that.
I find myself a bit confused here !!!
Love is more powerful than god ?
Impossible right, god made us, he has the power to destroy us.
So much of confusion right.
Welcome to the reality baby, true identity of god.
And people says they havn'nt seen god, ha ha ha !!!
Funny species humans are.
We love, we die for it, we die to uphold it, we sacrifice the only thing thats our in this world for it, our lifes.
That is godly !!!
In love theres no me, but we.
That is godly !!!
It makes us forget our happiness in a run to fulfill their's.
That is godly !!!
It can make us thinks we were sent in this world for this, when we should be enjoying, we keep on thinking a better way of making them happy.
That is godly !!!
when you make them stand in shade, while you stand under the scroching heat,
That is godly !!!
When you Forget your birthday, which you celebrated so grandly untill now, with a motive to throw them a surprise party on their birthday.
That is godly !!!
Inspite of burning with fever, when you are tensed to the bone, just because they got a bit of cold.
That is godly !!!
You have been dieing to have something, and when you give it up to them, just because they said its good.
That is godly !!!
When you keep smiling when your heart cries out, just not to let them know it and be upset.
That is godly !!!
And when while dieing your last wish is not to let them carry you, because you are heavy and they would get tired.
That is divine !!!
When you prohibit them to come to burn you down, just because you cant see them cry.
That is divine !!!
Where don't you see god, you morons.
Look around you, he is every where.
Feelings always does't need a body.
It is omni present.
NOW TEL ME HAVE YOU SEEN GOD ?
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Dillema Deep Inside
Have you ever seen the stars ?
Small sparkling objects, describing who is the best architechture in this universe..
Sleeping under the sky in the roof top all alone, with cool breeze touching your body..
Man it feels good !!!
Being lonely sucks, isnt it ?
Ya it does so much...
The fact you have friends who care about you, but still you are alone,
It really really sucks, totally..
Where are you all ?
I need you, i need you, i need you !!!
Come to me please, am all alone..
We would have a quality time talking, gossiping, sharing things i want to..
Hear me please !!!
Am not insane, am not a bad person either..
I know i do things you all don't like..
Trust me i tried a lot to change it..
I forced every single cell in my body to do it..
I could'nt re, i just failed miserably..
Am selfish i know, am crazy i know that too, i should'nt have some habits, i even know that..
I just can't help it, god damn it i just can't..
Am so sorry for being so selfish..
I say i love you all so much..
But then i impose on you so many things you don't like, so i can be happy..
What about your feelings ?
Are'nt they important ?
What about your happiness and wish ?
Are'nt that those things i die to fulfill ?
Where did i love you all then ?
If i would have loved you, i would respect every wish you have na..
Why can't i let them be happy, why can't i love them the way they are..
Why can't i let them live the way they wanna live..
What the hell am i doing ?
Where am i taking them ?
What the hell am i thinking huh ?
For whom did i change myself so much..
For whose happiness i sacrificed mine ?
I love you !!!
To the level you can't even imagine..
I crossed across all the boundaries and limits..
Just for you all..
I ll make you happy, i ll give you the happiness you deserve..
Yes i ll, yes ill..
I promise you all !!!
Small sparkling objects, describing who is the best architechture in this universe..
Sleeping under the sky in the roof top all alone, with cool breeze touching your body..
Man it feels good !!!
Being lonely sucks, isnt it ?
Ya it does so much...
The fact you have friends who care about you, but still you are alone,
It really really sucks, totally..
Where are you all ?
I need you, i need you, i need you !!!
Come to me please, am all alone..
We would have a quality time talking, gossiping, sharing things i want to..
Hear me please !!!
Am not insane, am not a bad person either..
I know i do things you all don't like..
Trust me i tried a lot to change it..
I forced every single cell in my body to do it..
I could'nt re, i just failed miserably..
Am selfish i know, am crazy i know that too, i should'nt have some habits, i even know that..
I just can't help it, god damn it i just can't..
Am so sorry for being so selfish..
I say i love you all so much..
But then i impose on you so many things you don't like, so i can be happy..
What about your feelings ?
Are'nt they important ?
What about your happiness and wish ?
Are'nt that those things i die to fulfill ?
Where did i love you all then ?
If i would have loved you, i would respect every wish you have na..
Why can't i let them be happy, why can't i love them the way they are..
Why can't i let them live the way they wanna live..
What the hell am i doing ?
Where am i taking them ?
What the hell am i thinking huh ?
For whom did i change myself so much..
For whose happiness i sacrificed mine ?
I love you !!!
To the level you can't even imagine..
I crossed across all the boundaries and limits..
Just for you all..
I ll make you happy, i ll give you the happiness you deserve..
Yes i ll, yes ill..
I promise you all !!!
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