Story Of My Life !!

Bad experiences with people. They just leave a horrible bitter taste in our mouth. They breed distrust, anger, hesitance, sadness and caution. These are nothing but bricks and cement that inevitably lead to the construction of a fierce wall. A wall of defence so strong. There is no door, not even a window. We're so busy blocking out the negativity 

and protecting yourselves against harm, that we don't realise we're also very effectively blocking out the air, the 

sunshine, the view, not to mention, new visitors.

Let them in they say, let them be your comfort zone. What if that comfort zone become your only source of solace, 

what if you get devoted to the solace and out of no where you find yourself in No man's land. Standing all alone, 

pitying on yourself, reflecting on every cell of yours, as to where did you go wrong. You din't mean to be a reason of 

someone being uncomfortable around you, you just wanted the fellowship. Everything the poor soul respected, 

upheld, loved, cherished, and believed to be the truth comes shattering down in an instant. There is not much time gap 

between knowing something to be true and false. It takes just an instant to fall face down so hard, it takes you ages to 

stand up. Mustering courage, trying to believe something you know is a lie, trying to hope something when your heart 

knows you are gonna fall down again. Ignoring your instincts, letting your guard down you start over. In a fit to 

impress people to make them love you, you lose yourself to the oblivion. Fear of being left alone in a rush is 

heartbreaking, right. And then you are thrown right off your  feet again. WOW, feels great huh !!

Being missed dearly when you were'nt around, tops the list of ecstacy. When a friend of yours, drunk, calls you in the 

middle  of the night to tell you "Buddy i miss you". What was that word again, when you enter the room and silence 

takes over, and what the heck was that word again, when you realise that you were the reason for that. Feeling lonely 

sucks, but being the outcast, that other thinks being lonely is better than actually being in your company, rips you 

apart pieces by pieces.


Ultimate agony is when a complete stranger comes up to ask you, "you look sad, is everything alrite ?" and 

overwhelmed you want to pour your heart out, but instead says " Am fine, 

thank you ".

Story of my life !!!