Where Did They Go

As the sunlight slowly faded away,
The city lights flickered on, one by one,
Illuminating everything on the outside,
And casting a shadow on the inside;

As time slowly ticked past,
The darkness inched closer and closer,
Spreading its shadows across the land,
My inner self comes alive;

As much as i struggle and curl underneath the blanket,
My fears come alive, and slowly engulfs me from the inside,
And tears up the mask that i so successfully put on during the day;

Fears that torment me from the inside during the day,
Comes alive as soon the light fades away and i am back into my den,
With a mind of its own, tormenting me every single night,
Sometimes i wished i was dead;

Surrounded by many,
Yet isolated and alone,
I try to reach out to people,
But succeed in grasping just empty air;

Struggling to keep my sanity,
I plunge myself into darkness,
For its the only place to hide,
To cope with all this,
I give up and cry myself to sleep;

It’s tiresome to want something you don’t have, and each morning,
I wake with loneliness by my side, each day I walk with it’s presence,
In my footsteps, each night it lies hand in hand with my insomnia;

Perhaps i have become invisible ?
Or have i become just an figment of imagination ?
They cried on my shoulders and i soaked up their tears,
Asking for nothing in return, but when i need someone,
Where did they all go ?

When We Are Together

I sit here watching,
The twinkle of the stars,
The full moon in its beauty,
In the cool night breeze;

A feeling so strong, yet said very less,
A emotion that whirls around like a tornado,
But expressed not even a whisper;

As the gentle breeze tried to play a lullaby,
My eyes just refused to pay heed,
Drowned in thoughts of you,
My mind was as fresh as it can be;

All these times, all those moments,
I can’t believe how i let go,
I can’t understand why i didn’t say,
What my heart was crying out loud;

I’m always thinking of you,
Thinking of expressing myself,
But my words,
When I look at you, when i speak with you,
It always ends up to one thing,
I just can’t think of,
The right words to say;

If only the wind could carry,
The unrevealed emotions,
That my heart is crying out every night,
I would send it as my messenger right away !!

Should I tell you,
How awful it feels,
Giving off our time alone,
Don’t you feel the pain,
When your eyes lock with mine?

Sometimes life can be deceiving,
I’ll tell you one thing,
It’s always better when we’re together,
Promises, i dont make,
Of the riches and wealth,
All i have and all that i can,
Give you is my love,
For as long as i am alive,
To cement our future,
To make our dreams come true !!

Tomorrow Will Be Better Then Today

Its midnight and tomorrow is a better day than today,
My eyes just staring at the wall opposite,
No sleep, no dreams,
I sit and watch the drama,
Unfolding before me;

Like an empty canvas,
Waiting for an artist,
I wait in anticipation,
Wondering when and wondering why;

I did all i could,
So i believe so,
What is happening is beyond my grasp,
And i can only watch as a mere spectator;

A mere spectator in my own life,
One moment its all the way up,
The next its hanging in balance,
The tension is nerve wracking;

Patience is all i have,
And patience is all that i need,
As i watch the things unfold,
And let things take shape at its own pace;

I waited a long time for this,
So what difference it is going to make,
To wait a little bit more,
But for how long should i be the villian in my own life;

I wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
I wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,
I wish i do not have to wait for long,
I wish, i hope and i believe,
Maybe tomorrow will be better than today !!

Make My Wish Come True

Searching for answers,
That evaded me for so long,
I got lost in a maze of treachery,
Hidden under a mask of innocence;

It’s been so long,
Words kept me awake,
All night long, making,
Me restless and confused;

Drowning in the wishes,
Of a long lost past,
I let my life down,
I let myself down;

In the midst of the night
Under the velvet skies
I surrendered to life
I whisper for forgiveness;

So with a smile on my lips,
And a wish on my heart,
I give faith(hope) one more reason,
I give life another chance,
To make my wish come true !!!

Incomplete

The grey sky looming above,
Rain drops still dripping down,
From the pregnant clouds above,
We set out on our journey once again;

Around and around we go,
In slow circles moving,
To the beat of the thunder,
And rain that surrounds us;

As the droplets hit the ground,
Shattered realizations lay scattered,
Reminding me nothing is same,
As it seems to be;

As another memory turns to dust,
I cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past,
And i shove it back into the depths,
Where nothing will ever bring it back alive;

The rain does nothing to stop our journey,
Never forgetting, who we are,
We walk these streets of madness,
Knowing that,without each other,
We are simply incomplete.

If You Have A Dream

Don’t wait for some distant day to come,
It may be too late before you’ve even begun,
Not everyone will agree with all you decide.

Be true to yourself first and foremost,
The only important thing in life is what you do,
With the time you spend here on earth.

Don’t be afraid to follow your desires,
They are not silly nor selfish,
Take the time and do what makes you feel alive.

Leave your fears and regrets in the past,
For this is where they belong,
Don’t cloud today with things that can’t be undone.

You have no more control over yesterday or tomorrow,
Than you do the raging of your passions,
Do not quiet these dreams nor quench your desires.

For if you do, your journey is ended,
You have only today to begin anew and follow your dreams,
For in the end all we have are our memories.

When the twilight comes to us, let there be,
No excuses, no explanations, no regrets !!!

Change Of Heart

Thoughts flow through my head,
As i wait to find the place where i belong,
Waiting in line for a long time,
My patience slowly ebbing away;

Searching for a way to find that special place for me,
That place where i can fly, the place where i feel free,
That place thats my own, the place where im totally
Free is right by your side, when its just you and me;

Challenges i met along the way,
Embrace my life with trepidation.
But, a changed person, i am today;

Suddenly the world is different,
The world is new,
The world is a place
Perfect for me and you;

And suddenly everything fits,
The world seems like a perfect place,
I’m no longer alone,
And my life doesn’t seem to be such a waste !!!

Before I Am Dead

Waking up drenched in sweat,
Realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare,
I get up to drink a glass of water,
To drown the fear that woke me up !!

Sins I have done plenty,
I do not know if the good I did is enough,
To grant me a passage to heaven,
Or worse, born again as human !!

Never cared for what people thought,
Never worried about those who left,
Never a minute I spent crying over split milk,
What had to happen, had to happen !!

What I was yesterday is what I am today,
Yet people think I have changed, I wonder why !!
I take life as it comes,
No expectations and no demands !!

With the guillotine waiting at every step,
Uncertainty looms large over tomorrow,
I fear I need to live every moment
Of today before I am dead !!