Dillema Deep Inside

Have you ever seen the stars ?
Small sparkling objects, describing who is the best architechture in this universe..
Sleeping under the sky in the roof top all alone, with cool breeze touching your body..
Man it feels good !!!
Being lonely sucks, isnt it ?
Ya it does so much...
The fact you have friends who care about you, but still you are alone,
It really really sucks, totally..
Where are you all ?
I need you, i need you, i need you !!!
Come to me please, am all alone..
We would have a quality time talking, gossiping, sharing things i want to..
Hear me please !!!
Am not insane, am not a bad person either..
I know i do things you all don't like..
Trust me i tried a lot to change it..
I forced every single cell in my body to do it..
I could'nt re, i just failed miserably..
Am selfish i know, am crazy i know that too, i should'nt have some habits, i even know that..
I just can't help it, god damn it i just can't..
Am so sorry for being so selfish..
I say i love you all so much..
But then i impose on you so many things you don't like, so i can be happy..
What about your feelings ?
Are'nt they important ?
What about your happiness and wish ?
Are'nt that those things i die to fulfill ?
Where did i love you all then ?
If i would have loved you, i would respect every wish you have na..
Why can't i let them be happy, why can't i love them the way they are..
Why can't i let them live the way they wanna live..
What the hell am i doing ?
Where am i taking them ?
What the hell am i thinking huh ?
For whom did i change myself so much..
For whose happiness i sacrificed mine ?
I love you !!!
To the level you can't even imagine..
I crossed across all the boundaries and limits..
Just for you all..
I ll make you happy, i ll give you the happiness you deserve..
Yes i ll, yes ill..
I promise you all !!!

A Baby Called Life

How many of people do you think belief in the quote,
That what ever happens with us, no matter how unpredictable our life unfolds itself to us,
Everything is planned, everything that happens to us is for our own good...
I don't think many would, is'nt it ?
Even i din't, till i passed out of school..
But now after being crushed so many times, did i realise its real significance..
True its hard to sink in, but the sooner you grasp it, the better..
He loves all of us, each and everyone of us,
Its just that we think he does'nt..
The flaw is not his, but ours..
We have become selfish enough to blame him for each and every wrong that happens to us..
And when we are pointed out about it, we say thats what makes us humans..
Ha ha !! cool..
Sorry God, my bad..
Many people says a lot about what life is all about..
But hey don't listen to them, thats all bullshit..
No1 can define life..
Life is defined the way we see it to be, what we make out of it..
We meet people, we talk to them..
But not everyone can be our friends..
Let me tell you a story..



"An Indian Brahmin was interested in gaining supernatural powers..
Learning that a monk in Tibet could grant him his wishes, he undertook an arduous journey through the Himalayas to meet him..
The monk told the Brahmin: ‘‘The mantra to gain supernatural powers is simple.
Just say Buddham Sharanam Gachchami, Dhammam Sharanam Gachchami, Sangham Sharanam Gachchami three times, But don’t think of monkeys.’’ Content,
The Brahmin thought: ‘‘I am such a learned man.
Why should I think of monkeys when I chant the mantra?’’
But when he sat down to chant the mantra, the first thought that came to his mind was that of monkeys. Later, all he could think of was monkeys.
The monkeys roamed all over his consciousness until he lost his peace of mind.
Seeing his condition, the monk smiled: ‘‘If you force your mind to travel in a certain direction, it will go the other way.’’



Crazy you all may think, Why the hell am i putting this story where it does'nt fit..
People its not for all of you, the one it is for will understand..
Sometimes its better and healthy to just let go, holding it on sucks..
Its hard to do, but the effort is worth it..
Well while you are busy thinking what i just said,
Let me take this oppurtunity to jot down another story..




"In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway.
Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock.
Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it.
Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables.
Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road.
After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded.
After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been.
The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway."



"Every obstacle in life presents an opportunity to improve our condition."
I don't think this saying needs much of an explaination..
My part heres is done then..

See you all in a short while then !!!!!

Cosmic Forum

How do i begin to express what it is i feel on the inside...
I know you are tired of guessing the words i hide...
It hurts me too, to hold my feelings and not to let you in...
But letting this part of me go will take a lifetime to mend...
Please try to understand waht i want you to know...
But it will take too much in me to show...
This feelings are for real and not pretended...
Am very happy you are still there to hold me and show me you will always care...
I know you go through your problem too, but you still take time and listen through...
I wanna give you the same love and care you gave me...
That the special part of me will always be true and although held inside...
I hope u see it too !!!!

Benefit Of Doubt

What is "LOVE" ?
Interesting concept love is...
Asked by many, but answered by none...
The one thing i learned from life is, "The Process Of Refining"...
How to ugrade yourself with time...The way of becoming a better person in life...
Amazing how life reveal itself...How it has a very uncanny habit of unfolding itself in a way completely
different then u imagine it would be...Very sad indeed !!!
But nontheless it must go on...
Anyways coming back to the reality, the definition of love varies with mentality...
Love is something so beautiful and so devastating, entirely an out of the world feeling...
You flourish in it, you are the happiest person in the world...
You fail, you are destroyed...
Pity, young generation really have demean its real meaning...
Love is by far the most sacred creation of god...
The first thought that evoke with the word love is a boy and a girl...
So sad !!!
What is it, when a mother stays up all night just to ensure her son sleeps, when he is afraid...
What is it then, when a father arranges for his daughter marriage...
And what is it then, when a brother sacrifice his entire life just to see that his sister is happy...
Welcome to reality people...
That is what god intended love to be...Unconditional love, the 8th wonder of the world...
No demands, no condition, no expectation...
Just the feeling, yes they are happy...
After all what is more happier then to know, that you were being missed...
Fine, we know what love is, no matter in parts though...But still we have the basic idea...
Then what is it, when a person doesn't care about one's own life, own wish, own happiness...But live for
the one he loves ??
Its love right ?
It really is love...Does dictionary contain any word describing this...
Or its just an extreme case...A psycho, a mad man trying to show off that yes he can love...
But then its sacred, isnt it ?
There is nothing wrong in it, i guess...
Many people does'nt approve it, yes...
But hey who gives a fuck, what other people thinks right...
So its done then !!!!